Last night

The baby's yelling. Not crying. Yelling. That means she's standing in her bed wanting someone to get her out of it. I sit up so I can see the clock on Matt's side of the bed (I can't see over him when he's lying on his side). It's 4:30. Maybe she'll lay herself back down. Guess not. She's still yelling. I nudge Matt's foot. "Go lay her back down," I tell him. No movement. I nudge him again. "Stop," he responds. I ask him to go lay the baby back down and he tells me to do it. Grrr! I get up and lay the baby back down. Now, she's screaming. I get back in bed, lie on my left side (this is important later) and put a pillow over my head. She's already standing back up. I can tell by the cry. Maybe Matt will get up and lay her back down now. Guess not. Now I have to pee. Maybe she needs Tylenol. I think she's teething. I didn't give her any before bed. Sigh.

I get up and go downstairs, stop at the bathroom on the way, and grab her Tylenol from the kitchen. I measure it in the kitchen so I don't have to turn the light on in her bedroom. I walk into Avery's room and she's standing in her bed. I try to give her the medicine while she's standing in her bed, but it's hard to hit a moving target in the dark. I pick her up and she stops screaming. I give her the Tylenol, lay her back down and walk out. She's screaming again. I climb back in bed, lying on my right side this time. I put the same pillow over my head. There's no more screaming. For a moment I think to myself, "damn, this pillow is sound proof." Then, I remember that it wasn't sound proof when I did this a few minutes ago. Now, I think, "Oh man, am I deaf in my left ear?" I'm really concerned about my sudden deafness. I raise the pillow off my head and lift up so my right ear (the non-deaf one) isn't smooshed into the bed. Oh, I'm not deaf after all. She really stopped crying. Just like that.

Hmmm...now begins the inner dialogue. "I hope something's not wrong with her. What if something's wrong with her. There's nothing wrong. She just went back to sleep. But it was so sudden. Maybe I should check on her. Then, I'll wake her up if she's really just asleep. I'm sure she's fine. I can't sleep on this side. Why did I lie on this side? I need to roll over. Groan. That'll take too much effort." I roll over to the left side again. "I can't sleep like this either. I need to be more on my stomach. I can't lie on my stomach, cause I'm engorged." Sigh. Now, I'm narrating this whole story in my head. "Stop! Turn it off. There is no audience at 4:30 in the morning. Stop narrating. Go to sleep." I look at the clock again. "Five o'clock! I have to get up in 45 minutes. Clear your mind, Amanda. Sleep, sleep, sleep, sleep..."