I live my life perched precariously between being on the edge of OCD and being a ridiculous procrastinator. It's a very strange place to exist. I am a control freak. I'm one of those people who tries to schedule myself to the nth degree and then gets all flustered when it doesn't work out. I'm a junkie -- a spreadsheet junkie. I have spreadsheets for my spreadsheets - and we're not talking for work, folks. My grocery list is on a spreadsheet. I feel pretty certain it's a type of sickness. I've heard that for most people, a trip to the grocery does not entail multiple spreadsheets, research, cross-references, and great inner turmoil. What the hell is wrong with me? I don't know, but I can't stop! Throw in the procrastination and the weekly trip to the grocery is quite an ordeal.
I LOVE to laugh. My husband is the greatest gift of love and laughter. I enjoy life, but sometimes get hung up in the trivial (see above - great inner turmoil over groceries - uh yea). My husband has a way of extracting my claws from the ceiling and bringing me back down to solid ground.
I worry about what other people think of me, even though I know I shouldn't. I don't like to hurt people's feelings...probably because my own feelings are easily hurt. I'm non-confrontational. I will bury my head in the sand to avoid an uncomfortable confrontation. Even better, I'll write about it! Writing is therapeutic for me. Then again, so is cooking...so is eating!
I have projects. I'm always taking on some type of project based on whatever is important to me at that time. When I say projects, it doesn't necessarily mean house or craft projects. There's just some part of my life that I focus on and I pour all my energy into it until I'm done with that project and then I move on the the next one. For instance, when I need to shed a few pounds and weight loss forces its way into my "project" status, I will hit my goal every time. Unfortunately, it's never long term. None of my "projects" are long term. I guess you can think of it this way. I'm a sprinter, not a distance runner (and I mean that quite figuratively, because I don't do either unless I'm being chased).
I don't like to go with the status quo. I am resentful of all things "i" and "Disney". I don't like the way princesses are forced down my daughter's throat. I don't want an iPod, iPhone or iPad.
I like music and I love to dance. I love the scene in Monster's University when the mom waits in the car and starts blasting some crazy loud rock music. I can so relate! Wait, Monster's University - was that a Disney movie? Dang! I can't completely banish all things Disney. I do really enjoy Good Luck Charlie on the Disney channel a little more than any adult probably should. And I love the classics -- The Jungle Book and Mary Poppins are two of my all-time favorites. I just like to root for the under dog, I guess. And let's face it, Disney is a giant.
That's all I can think of to sum up my humble existence. Now, you've gotten a glimpse in my life...and in my head. Kinda crazy and weird, huh?
PS ocd and procrastination are commonly linked for people who have perfectionistic tendencies. My husband is the exact same way. If he can't get it done perfectly to the last detail, he doesn't want to start. Hence, my patio.....
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