I live my life perched precariously between being on the edge of OCD and being a ridiculous procrastinator. It's a very strange place to exist. I am a control freak. I'm one of those people who tries to schedule myself to the nth degree and then gets all flustered when it doesn't work out. I'm a junkie -- a spreadsheet junkie. I have spreadsheets for my spreadsheets - and we're not talking for work, folks. My grocery list is on a spreadsheet. I feel pretty certain it's a type of sickness. I've heard that for most people, a trip to the grocery does not entail multiple spreadsheets, research, cross-references, and great inner turmoil. What the hell is wrong with me? I don't know, but I can't stop! Throw in the procrastination and the weekly trip to the grocery is quite an ordeal.
I LOVE to laugh. My husband is the greatest gift of love and laughter. I enjoy life, but sometimes get hung up in the trivial (see above - great inner turmoil over groceries - uh yea). My husband has a way of extracting my claws from the ceiling and bringing me back down to solid ground.
I worry about what other people think of me, even though I know I shouldn't. I don't like to hurt people's feelings...probably because my own feelings are easily hurt. I'm non-confrontational. I will bury my head in the sand to avoid an uncomfortable confrontation. Even better, I'll write about it! Writing is therapeutic for me. Then again, so is cooking...so is eating!
I have projects. I'm always taking on some type of project based on whatever is important to me at that time. When I say projects, it doesn't necessarily mean house or craft projects. There's just some part of my life that I focus on and I pour all my energy into it until I'm done with that project and then I move on the the next one. For instance, when I need to shed a few pounds and weight loss forces its way into my "project" status, I will hit my goal every time. Unfortunately, it's never long term. None of my "projects" are long term. I guess you can think of it this way. I'm a sprinter, not a distance runner (and I mean that quite figuratively, because I don't do either unless I'm being chased).
I don't like to go with the status quo. I am resentful of all things "i" and "Disney". I don't like the way princesses are forced down my daughter's throat. I don't want an iPod, iPhone or iPad.
I like music and I love to dance. I love the scene in Monster's University when the mom waits in the car and starts blasting some crazy loud rock music. I can so relate! Wait, Monster's University - was that a Disney movie? Dang! I can't completely banish all things Disney. I do really enjoy Good Luck Charlie on the Disney channel a little more than any adult probably should. And I love the classics -- The Jungle Book and Mary Poppins are two of my all-time favorites. I just like to root for the under dog, I guess. And let's face it, Disney is a giant.
That's all I can think of to sum up my humble existence. Now, you've gotten a glimpse in my life...and in my head. Kinda crazy and weird, huh?
